Saturday, November 6, 2010
11:07 AM ●

Entering the "down" period..cant help but to think of negative thoughts.
Wishing to be happy again..but i know the fault lies in me. I can make
myself happy. It feels like im trying to make myself sad instead. Weird.
Told to be stronger..trying hard to. During the process of recovery, i will
still think that im irritating people. There is a major problem with my
perception. Hence leading to many misunderstandings...spoiling
friendships..and back to the emo, lonely person.

Right now require much support..to pull off this period. Hopefully
able to..it sucks seriously..and i suck too. Damn..even though sometimes
i said i wish to be alone..so much for the lying..i just want someone to
stand by me. im weak now. Fragile heart. I couldnt take much miseries
anymore..what if one day i really have emotional + mental breakdown?
Depression..it feels like im having it. lols. Nvms..right now..probably
just wish that..every tmr will always be a better day.

xxxxxx

( Run to the city. )