Wednesday, December 1, 2010
7:52 AM ●

Tell me am i thinking too much or things are happening just the
way i thought it would be?

Lose my cool in salvo today..supposedly, juniors are suppose to
disturb the seniors while they are playing and vice versa. So yeah
for the seniors, us disturbing them is like nothing..So when juniors
turn, we of course BTH. laugh. Okay. then 2nd time..i tried to control
as well..initially trying hard not to laugh but still like smile smile..then
after that kind of backfired? I used anger to overcome that. So its like
im damn angry? my face was red? according to them. More angry looking
than how im supposed to have while playing the drum.

Im not sure whether what i think is right or not. Correct me if im wrong.
Somehow it feels that you are ignoring me. Which makes me kinda sad?
Was it that incident? I promise i wont do that again. You are tired of seeing
me like that like emo or never talk..thats why never talk to me? Idk..i really
dont. Definitely i hope not for the first one. Things doesnt feel the same.

I know im just a nobody. Im weak. Small matters also can be sad for idky.
Im weird. Im annoying. I emo a lot. I suck. I have to agree with all that.
In my life, close friends can impact me greatly. Without them, im really
worse than a nobody. I wish all this can be put to an end soon. And we all
can be happily again. This + projects + assignments are really pushing me
to break down.

Then again..im sorry..
bye...

xxxxxx

( Run to the city. )